Last Day of 2011

Wow, it feels just like last week was 1st January 2011.
Now tomorrow is going to be 1st January of 2012.
It's been a year already.
I wished that the year would stayed longer.
I'm not ready to be 19 yet.
I'm not ready to change.
I'm not ready to go towards the future.
But that's just the thing.
I will always be unready and unprepared.
And this is life.
I have to always be ready.
So goodbye 2011, you've been nice to me.
Though some haven't been nice to me but you have.
I'll cherish you forever.
You're the year I can never get back.
The year I love the most cause I'm 18.
There's so many things you have let me do.
And I thank you God, for giving me the opportunity to live this long.
Alhamdulillah :)

Langkawi.

I went there like long time ago.
But it feels like just 2 weeks ago.
Wait, it was. LOL.
So yeah, Langkawi is the bomb.
You have got to check it out.
I went island hopping on the first day.
Went to Tasik Dayang Bunting.
Pulau Harimau Besar or something like that.
Then Pulau Beras Basah.
The beach was spectacular.
The next next day we woke up at 7.
Ride the cable car which was the steepest in the world.
But we waited the cable car from like 9 and the ride was delayed.
We waited and waited and waited.
Until around 12.30 p.m then the ride was opened.
I was like afraid of heights and I just well closed my eyes.
But I did opened my eyes to take photos.
My little brother cried cause he was so scared.
Funniest thing ever. HAHAHA!
When we hot up there, worth all the wait.
The scenery was amazing.
After that we went to Beras Terbakar for shopping.
But then Wahida came and kidnapped me.
We went around town, I met some of her friends.
Then, oh yeah we stayed in Pantai Cenang.
After that, the next day we went to Idaman Suri.
Oh my God, seriously it's heavenly.
If you do go there, you MUST go to Idaman Suri.
If you wanna shop for chocolates there's Haji Ismail Group.
That beats my craving for Candylicious.
Haji Ismail Group is waaaaaaaay better than Candylicious.
And waaaaaaaay CHEAPER!
So yeah that was the last day. Then we went back home :)
Langkawi, you will be missed.
And I promise to go there some other day.

Closing Chapter.

Hey readers, this maybe my last post for this year.
I can't believe that it's already December.
New Year's just around the corner.
My New Year's resolution for this year well, I didn't get to fulfill.
Fly.fm said that they're doing this thing which help us to fulfill our 2011 New Year's resolution.
But no, I'm not going to do that. I'm happy just the way things are already :)
So the story today is... I'm sharing you thing's I've been doing this whole year.
A summary of my year :)

January
Stayed at home, sleeping, eating, onlining.
Hanging out with friends, chit chating.
Helped around the house, still on vacation.

February
Looked for a job, got the job and my contract ended.
Went to take my drivings license.
Attended driving classes throughout the month.
Failed JPJ test, tried again in two weeks.
Passed my JPJ test :)

March
Waited two weeks to get my license.
Got my license and dad already asked me to drive.
Bought mom's birthday cake at Baskin Robbins with my bestie Syahru :)
Got into an accident the same day. LOL.
Big experience for me and her.
Surprised mom with Happy Ice-cream Birthday cake.

April
My birthday :) But it sucked.
Got a perfume (Rougeberry by Body Shop) from Mr. A
Continue to find a job.
Worked everyday like a lifeless robot.

May
Quited my job cause I hated it.
Got in a fight with Mr.A and paid back for the perfume.
So the perfume isn't a present anymore.
Celebrated dad's birthday.
But apparently he didn't appreciate it.

June
Worked at a different place. Just for two weeks.
Got super excited because I got an application to further my studies.
Went supplies shopping with mom and acceptedmy application.

July
Went to Kuantan, Pahang.
I studied there.
First week was orientation.
The next classes already started.
Got loads of assignments.
Made new friends :)

August
Mid term ALREADY (quite early I know)
Fasting month. The month which I made a new bestfriend.
Nurul Wahida Bt Nor Aziddin :)
Love her till death.
She's from Langkawi, Kedah.
Slept in her room and her bed with her during this whole month.
But got in a fight with her roommate and decided to go back to my room.
And this is why I love her to death.
She followed me to sleep in my room on my bed with me :)
Lost my dearest grandfather :(

September
The month of Eid.
Got one week vacation to go back and celebrate Eid with family.
First 3 days went to Bagan Datoh, Perak. My kampung <3
Then go back to Singapore. Celebrated the most depressing Eid there.
Because my Atuk was no longer with us.

October
Got back to Kuantan. Went to classes like normal.
Made preparation for final exam.
Went out to paaaartay before our final cause that was the last time to enjoy before going back.

November
Our final exam was held.
Finished all the papers.
Packed my stuffs and took a bus back to Puchong :)

December
Aaah, December :)
Hello there. I still haven't figured out what to do during this month.
But I gotta figure it out soon.
Cause I can never get back December, nor November or any other month this year.
I gotta do something before it's too late.
Same goes to you :)

So tell me, how was your year this year?
Mine? I've had one hell of a blast.
Adventures, mischieves, drama, heartbreak and FRIENDS <3
And yeah, I'm single now.
No longer attached to anyone.
Not even secretly :)
And maybe next year I'll keep it that way.
Cause that's MY New Year's resolution :)

And yeah, have a Merry Christmas to all of yall :)

Did You Know?

Tomorrow there will be a meteor shower.
Around 9pm till dawn.
Okay that would be all. Kbye.

Lunar Eclipse

It said to be that today is the lunar eclipse.
But I can't see the moon from my house.
Which sucks. I bet it's beautiful :)
So yeah, I know because I read from this site.
Here's the article. It's in Malay though :D

Sudah lama saya tidak menulis di sini. Rindu juga untuk menulis balik dan mendapat respon dari kawan2 yang berminat dengan astronomi di luar sana. Kali ini saya ingin mengkhabarkan kepada anda semua akan peristiwa gerhana bulan penuh yang akan berlaku pada 10hb Disember ini.

Gerhana bulan yang bakal terjadi pada sabtu malam 10hb ini merupakan rentetan peristiwa gerhana bulan penuh yang terjadi pada 16 Jun tahun ini. Menariknya kerana ke-dua2 peristiwa gerhana pada tahun 2011 ini ialah gerhana bulan penuh. Tahun terakhir kita melihat gerhana penuh ialah pada tahun 2007 dan jika anda terlepas peluang kali ini, maka anda perlu menanti tahun 2018 untuk melihat gerhana bulan penuh sekali lagi. Namun jangan risau kerana gerhana bulan separa sentiasa akan terjadi setiap tahun pada tahun mendatang sehinggalah tahun 2018 tiba.

Apa yang akan anda lihat nanti ialah pada malam tersebut, bulan yang awalnya bersinar penuh akan menjadi bulan sabit secara perlahan- lahan sehinggalah keselurahan bulan kelihatan bertukar warna menjadi merah tembaga.

Waktu Gerhana

Peristiwa kali ini akan amatlah sesuai dan menyenangkan untuk diikuti memandangkan ianya mula berlaku pada jam 8.46 minit malam dan berakhir pada jam 12.17 pagi (gerhana pada Jun yang lepas adalah pada lewat pagi yang sejuk!) . Pada ketika ini, apa yang terjadi ialah bulan akan mula memasuki bayang gelap bumi (umbra).

Bulan yang pada awal malamnya adalah bulan purnama penuh akan di'makan' sedikit demi sedikit bermula jam 8.46 malam sehinggalah keseluruhan bulan akan berada dalam bayang gelap bumi sepenuhnya pada jam 10.06 minit malam. Pada saat ini dikatakan totaliti bermula.

Bulan akan bermula berada dalam totaliti dari jam 10.06 mlm, kemuncak pada jam 10.32 mlm dan mula keluar dari bayang umbra pada jam 10.57 malam. Bulan akan keluar keseluruhannya dari bayang umbra pada jam 12.17 pagi pada 11hb Disember 2011.

Oleh itu, anda mempunyai masa lebih kurang 3 jam setengah untuk mengikuti peristiwa ini. Apa lagi, ajak rakan2, saudara mara dan orang kampung anda untuk melihat peristiwa ini. Disunatkan untuk melakukan solat sunat gerhana 2 rakaat. Panduannya ada di sini.

Cara untuk mengikuti peristiwa ini mudah sahaja, iaitu menggunakan mata kasar anda! Selain itu, anda boleh cuba untuk merakam peristiwa ini menggunakan kamera dan juga video. Link di sini dan di sini boleh membantu anda mendapatkan idea bagaimana untuk merakam peristiwa ini. 

Today

Today My Life Begins :P

speechless

Just like my title, I am now officially speechless.
I guess all you readers out there (which I doubt there's any) are wondering..
"How can Fify Sulaiman be speechless?"
well, I'm out of breath and out of words.
I have absotoodleuetely nothing to say.
I am now fed up with the whole world.
well damn all of yall, I'm Effe White.
Just watch this video and you'll know why.

say goodbye to Kuantan

AND SAY HELLO TO PUCHONG :D
hihihih. today's my last day in Kuantan.
yeay yeay nak balikpuchong dah :D
bye Kuantan. Jumpa agi sebulan nnt :)

Jolly good show

I can't believe someone still reads my blog. LOL.
oh wait not read, lemme rephrase that.
I can't believe someone still reads stalks my blog :D
okay itu saja. byebye :)

It's been a while

wow, lama nya tak post kat blog ni.
rasa rindu pulak. hihi. all I gotta say is sekarang tengah final.
busy busy busy.
Got a new phone. I've stopped posting photos of me hijjabless.
Got a new ex, and got back with Mr A :)
and long story short, it's been an entertaining month.
November please be good to me :)
okay, goodbye

I'll never forget you

that's all I gotta say. CIAO. <33

berbuka di padang

sorry tapi aku rasa malas nak perah otak utk berbahasa English :) so entry ni aku nak buat dalam bahasa melayu. lama tak post dalam BM. takpe la aku rojak rojak kan je entry ni. HIHI. *macam tak biasa. so minggu lepas, aku wahida dgn effa berbuka kat padang MPK. memang seronok gila weh. yang seronok nye bukan apa. CUCI MATA! perkataan kegemaran setiap insan di dunia benar? HIHI. aku tak sangka orang Kuantan ni handsome handsome belaka. nak je aku kahwin sorang. hahaha! aku tak sempat beli makanan sebab... HEY BUKAN! bukan sebab sibuk cuci mata, aku tak sempat beli sebab kesesakan kat situ kalah kesesakan kat KL time balik kerja. gila padat weh. so aku sempat beli air je. yang tak boleh blah tu apa tau? sebelum berbuka padang cantik, bersih, nyaman udaranya. tapi lepas berbuka, perghhhh. bersepah sampah sarap, udara penuh dgn asap rokok. hmm, memang aku cinta. then ktorang jalan jalan pergi KP, saje buang masa. then jalan jalan kat benteng. amek gambar. and then balik. HIHI. bunyi memang macam sekejap, tapi ktorang sampai padang pukul 5.30pm lebih, balik dalam pukul 10.30pm :) memang terbaik la korang korang (effa and wahida) walaupun berbuka bertiga je tai sumpah seronok. OH LUPA! terserempak dengan ABANG SENIOR. nama dia ayie and usop. hihi. gigi taring ayie cantik oh! okay itu saja. APA? TAKDE GAMBAR KE? mesti lah ada. saya upload ye. sebentar :)

sorry lah susunan gambar agak tonggang terbalik. sumpah aku malas nak organize. hihi. so pandai pandai lah korang teka bila and kat mana.
p/s: yang tudung biru tu effa, tudung brown tu wahida :)

AUGUST

HELLO AUGUST!
it's nice to finally meet you.
sorry it took me one week to say hello.
it's the month of Ramadhan and I can't  spend it with my family :')
but it's okayy, at least I have my sister.
for now, it's quite okay. no stress.
my mid term is held from 18th Aug until 26th Aug *they say
so that's about it. byebye:)

reverse this curse

"kalau kat dunia ni perempuan yang kena ngorat lelaki, awak nak declare bila?"
jawapan saya "bila dua dua sudah ready"

point sebenar aku tulis ni adalah sebab my Mr A tanya soalan tu :) and aku just nak cakap lah . kalau aku perempuan yang nak kena ngorat lelaki kan, nak tahu tak macam mana aku nak ngorat ? at first kenal kenal dulu . kita bermesra macam kawan . tapi jangan terlalu rapat sampai boleh jadi bestie dengan lelaki tu because kalau perempuan dia dah anggap bestie agak payah la korang nak convert jadi gf . so rapat la secara slow . plus , jangan la guna "kau" "aku" . nanti bila dah declare, sumpah korang akan rasa awkward untuk guna "i" "you" or "saya" "awak" .

the moment aku dah ready and aku tahu kau ready kan, aku akan plan "THE PERFECT PLANNED SPONTANEOUS DATE" sebab kalau nak impress perempuan, dia memang suka surprises . especially GOOD surprises . my ideal "perfect planned spontaneous date" adalah :

1. konon konon ajak la keluar macam biasa.
2. bawak pergi tenguk movie.
3. jangan lupa belanje lunch/dinner.
4. jalan jalan kat tempat yang paling cantik pada waktu senja (in my case I love taman bunga *tacky I know)
5. the perfect time would be at sunset/under the moon light.
6. get down on one knee and propose with a bracelet. awww :')

oh damn, now I've revealed exactly what I wished that would happen to me :) tapi sayang nye . hahaha . well , jodoh kat tangan Tuhan . mana tahu satu hari nanti Mr A buat macam ni kat aku kan . aku doa je . aminnn :)

tak sabar

tahu la kesabaran tu separuh dari iman, tapi sumpah aku tak sabar.
hihihi, cuba korang teka aku tak sabar untuk apa :D
teka la teka la . give up ? hahahaha ! aku tak sabar na masuk kptm :)
tak sabar nak sambung belajar balik . aku duduk rumah ni rasa dungu gila.
macam aku ni bodoh nak mampus sebab satu buku pun aku tak usik .
haihh , so cepat kan la masa sebab aku teringin na rasa environment kolej :)
aku tak sabar nak bukak buku dan belajar akaun (walaupun aku tak berapa minat akaun) :P
hihihihi , auwww excited gila babeng ! sumpah ! hahahaha :D

LOVE.

all I wanna post is writing. So if you get bored reading you can go now.
as the title said this entry is going to be about LOVE.
but not the lovey dovey shit. I am going to expose the truth about LOVE.
well, firstly love is a good feeling I must admit. I was once in love :)
but exactly why I don't fall in love anymore is that I can't stand :

1. THE BREAKUP
At first when you fall in love everything is beautiful. You start to see flowers everywhere. And birds are chipping happily as happy as your heart. you and your partner* (I use partner because it would be sexist if I use the gender) are the happiest couple n the world. You text your partner everyday every night. You call your partner just to say "I LOVE YOU". You and your partner share everything about each other. No secrets. Your partner gives you presents. You tend to sneak out at night just to see your partner. But a small misunderstanding lead to a big fight. And usually after a big fight, both side won't give their ego up. So one of you decide to breakup. OH YES breakup. That word seem simple and nothing would go wrong. But that breakup would actually lead to suicide. What the mouth would say is not exactly what the heart would do. When people breakup, they tend to get very very VERY angry. Angry with the EX partner and angry with their self. So, you start to open up with your friends and family about you EX. No secrets ? OH YEAH ! All your secrets will be shared upon your EX's friends and family. It would be shameful that other people know how you are actually. And when you breakup, all the presents your EX gave you are nothing but bitter memories. You want to give it back but your EX couldn't bare to even look at those shits cause it'll haunt your EX. But if you don't give it all back your EX definitely will bob up and down about giving you all those presents.

2. THE TEARS
Ah yes. Tears. Don't get me started on the tears. I would be lying if I say people who just broke up wouldn't cry. During in a relationship I'd cry. After breakup I'd cry. What... Oh shit I made this about me. Okay I admit this entry is actually about ME. SO WHAT ? It's my blog. So yeah. What he didn't know was I cried every time he say things that hurt my feelings. I cried but I act cool. I didn't want to burden him with my fucking tears. Why should I let him know I'm upset. I'm a big girl, I can take care of myself. Well, maybe that's why he said "baik takpayah ada couple". I don't blame him. But I would be lying if I said I didn't cried after hearing that. I would be lying if I said I didn't cry every single night thinking about this. What he doesn't know is how much it hurts for me to cry. My great aunt said it's not good to cry. It made her blind :( Well yeah, I bet you didn't know that right? This is exactly why I avoid being in love.

3. THE EX
I just don't understand. He and I broke up and he moved on. But why won't he let me move on? I want to move on too but he kept being in my way. Every time I start mingling with another guy he messes with that dude. He just can't stand seeing me with another dude. He has a new girlfriend but he acts as if I'm his girlfriend. I can't stand this. He keeps on saying to everyone he still loves me but yet he has a girlfriend. I feel bad for that motha fucka that he tells everyone it's his girlfriend but he's crazy for his ex. Yes I admit I love my ex dearly as much as he loved me. I care for him but what is his statement? He's in a relationship with someone else but still won't give me up. Confusing.

The thing is to me : BEING IN A COUPLE is just a label. You are in a relationship when you and your partner are deeply in love with one another. You don't have to tell the world you are a couple to be in a relationship.  What's more important? Your lover knows you love him or wanting the world to know you guys are a couple? Why let the world judge when your heart could be :) Lastly, I would not say who I am pointing out this entry to. Like I said, why let the world judge when MY HEART knows who this is for. All I hope is that he has that instinct that this is all for you baby. How I wish I loved you as much as you do. You are my forever and always. And I do hope that in 8 years time when we're both still single, we'd get married okay baby. I LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS :)

dear john !

hihi , okay entry ni tak ada kena mengena dengan headline .
saje nak letak tajuk lagu Taylor Swift . cause I like that song and I like her .
so what she's country ? suka hati aku lah na suka siapa .
oh God . ade orang cakap aku vainn . hahahaha .
three words for you honey : BARU KAU TAHU ? :)

I'M STILL A ROCKETTE STAR !

so what aku ta reti masak ?
so what aku bangun pukul 2 ?
so what aku ta makan sayur ?
so what aku pendek ?
so what aku ta suka cerita melayu ?
so what aku ta layan lagu melayu ?
so what aku bajet aku mat salleh ?
so what aku prefer guna the Queen's language ?
so what aku biatch ?
so what aku suka memain kan perasaan orang ?
so what aku ta suka Bieber ?
so what aku suka pink tapi tak feminine ?
so what aku anti-social ?
kalau korang ta suka ape yang aku buat please go to the nearest jungle, climb a tree and get lost :)
aku copycat ? kau copy pig :)
thanks for making me smile bebeh ;)

urghh

I just hate GUYS and the way they flirt.
just the thought of it loathe me.
people say I'm jealous and shit.
but no ! i just urghh ! gila babeng punye menyampah aku.
please lah guys ! stop flirting. at least with me.
I have to lie and convince people I'm a lesbian just to get rid of a guy
and stop asking for my number just to say "hi awak boleh kenalan?"
euuuuuw , c'mon la. my 9 y/o bro pun tahu that's crap.
and puh-leaaaaase ! stop saying you like me or you love me.
and aku paling benci orang yang cakap dia suka aku sebab aku cantik.
you represent the guys and you're literally saying you guys are SHALLOW !
and korang cakap macam kalau aku ni buruk dah lame aku ta layan.
right ? hey hey hey . siapa cakap mulut aku ni baik sangat ?
doesn't mean I'm pretty I have to be nice right ?
okay lah fine. aku ni bukan la jahat sangat tapi aku ta suka orang macam tu.
suka seseorang by the outer beauty, not the inner beauty.
at least have the decency to get to know people first then make a move.
then you'll know how we women really are.
sorry SLUTS, you are what you are. and guys I ain't no slut.
but if I am, I'm a very high class, expensive motha fucka.
RESPECT that SOAB !

(:

so, I dared myself to like deactivate my Facebook account.
which I did :) for at least a week. I wanna see how long I can last no logging in.
HAHAHA ! so like, I started yesterday and now I'm starting to feel bored.
and I wonder does anyone in my friend's list, realised I'm gone?
heck, they don't give a shit. I KNOW !
well, as you can see, I'm only updating my blog is because I'm damn bored !
HAHAHA ! kesiann my blog. don't worry. I still love you sayang :)
so, I'm off now. gonna watch glee.
and yeah, this week I spent about 200 on perfumes. congrats me :D

super excited

WELCOME to Universal Studios Singapore !

As I walked through the gates of Universal Studios Singapore and I entered the enchanted world of Hollywood, my heart yearns for more. Everything was divine! I heard singing and people around were dancing along the harmonious tunes coming out of the four charming guys who was singing 70's songs. Then, we met Betty Boop there. We took photos with her. We went in to see a rock theater with monsters as singers. There was Phantom of the Opera, Dracula, Frankenstein, Warewolf, She Wolf, Bride Zombie and straight from Egypt, Mummy herself. After going through Hollywood, we went straight into New York. As everybody knows, New York is the city that comes to life at night. So, basically nothing happened in the morning. So, we passed it and went to Sci-Fi City and my heart starts pumping when I saw BATTLESTAR GALLACTICA ! oh gosh ! we went on Cylon first because it looks more thrilling than Human. I tell you it is to DIE for !

Battlestar Gallactica HUMAN & CYLON

then we went to Ancient Egypt to go on a ride known as Revenge Of The Mummy. but at that time they were under maintenance. So, we skipped that and went straight to The Lost World and went on two rides. One is Jurassic Park Rapid Adventure. Yes at first I thought "heck, this is kiddy ride. But it was EFFING shit man ! the ride looks calm outside but damn, when we got into like a cave it was all scary man! There was a FREAKING T-Rex above us and the boat we ride on went up closer to the T-Rex. damn scary.

Jurassic Park Rapid Adventure

then we went on the other ride known as Canopy Flyer. hemphh, not scary at all. haha (this is due to Battlestar Gallactica) Then we walk to Far Far Away (Shrek) and went in 4-D movie. very cool and very 4-D ! it was awesome ! nothing you've seen before. then we went to see Donkey Live. but it kinda sucked. After that we went on the ride called Enchanted Airways. It was okay.

Enchanted Airways

After all that we decided to go around again and see if Revenge of the Mummy was ready and it WAS ! we got excited we ran the whole way up. haha. I don't know how we got into the single rider line, so me and my sisters and my cousin got separated so we went on the ride all separate. I was like "damn!" and it was totally scary and wicked awesome!

Revenge of the Mummy

I can't really show you what the inside looks like because they wont allow flash photography. And lastly we went to see a show in Lost World. but no photos because they wont allow flash photography. then me and my sisters went on Batlestar Gallactica Cylon and Human non-stop the whole night. then at about 9.15 p.m. they put on a firework show until 9.30 p.m. Then, we all went straight home. :)

sorry guys

as you can see , it's been a while since i updated my blog
yeah , I've been busy (if you know what I mean) :D
hey ! I'm not that busy la . I've been busy working okay .
hee , yeah . first I worked at a handbag fair for two weeks .
here are some of my duty on the job .
I call it "spelet" :)

then I got off for one week . then I got a job at cub-bon .

yeah . started at last Monday until Thursday .

I got leave on Friday and Saturday . then I decided ..

heck , I'm bored . I wanna quit . and so I did :)

but the 4 days I got at least one memory with me .

YOU

i like the old you .
when you were more selekeh and shit .
when you didn't know anything .
when I was the one suppose to guide you .
but now you've changed .
you've dress well . you are more macho .
but I like the sweet , innocent and untidy you .
gosh I miss you . but heck , you don't feel the same towards me .
so it's time to say goodbye . so , goodbye sayang :(

DILEMMA

why can't a girl be in a relationship with two guys she deeply in love with ?
it's a hard decision you know . to choose the right one .
are you willing to say goodbye to the person you like or the one who likes you ?
help me !

attention !

this entry is dedicated to all parents in the world .
you should know by now you adolescent child can think by their own .
they do not want you to be telling them what they should do .
they only need you to be guided . I myself sometimes felt that way .
I don't like being tell what to do . all teenagers are like that .
I know sometimes we get like stressed out by whatever you say .
but it's not like we don't love you .
we act the way we are because we just want your attention .
so quit stressing out your child . they will do crazee things when they're stressed out .
I know I did once . but I wont say what I did .
lastly , MOM and DAD
I LOVE YOU GUYS TILL MY LAST BREATH .
and I'm sorry for all the trouble I've caused .

I REALLY NEED YOU

it's 1.26 am
and it's times like this I need my shoulder to cry on .
which is SITI NUR ATIQAH ZAINAL ABIDIN !
tyqa , aku sangat perlukan kau skrg .
aku sedih macam aku cakap haritu .
aku dah tatau na buat apa .
I want him but I don't .
you wanna know why I felt so ?
because I really really REALLY want him .
but I want to know does he feel the same ?
aku sedih tyqa . tolong aku :'(

SWEET MEMORIES

nampak forrest , teringat faris .
nampak renoma teringat husna .
namapk schwarzenbach teringat tanjung .
nampak stationary , teringat daus .
tapi time naik lift , teringat semua sekali .
dan saat saat bangang ketika masa tu .
macam jakun gila tak pernah naik lift .
aku dgn fana sakit layan korang .
tapi tuu la saat indah :)

oh just STFU !

yes , first of all . don't flatter yourself okay ?
I soooooooooooooo did not smiled at you on purpose .
it was a sudden movement that I regreeeeeeeet ! OMG !!
i so hate you don't you know that ?
now don't ever even THINK of APOLOGIZING !
because yes sir you should know I won't forgive you !
you SOAB ! = = daaaaaamn . I think that's it .
adios muchacos ! = =

HOW CAN THIS BE ?

why does my heart keep pounding faster and faster every time I see his face ?
not just his face , even his photos . and my heart is still pounding that fast !
why can' I control my feelings ? I don't want to feel it . I don't like it .
I don't wanna fall in love ! damn , I need someone to talk to .
I am literally going INSANE right now . I can't think straight .
damn oh damn ooh damnnn . now I want to cuss .
haihh , it's so damn hard maaaaaaan ! = =

my biggest regret

they say the hardest words to say is 'I'm sorry'
but to me , NO ! it's not .
it's hard to say I'm sorry because you won't admit your ego .
now I want to send my BIGGEST and LARGEST SORRY to these two .

NUR AIN BT MOHD RODZI 
SITI NUR ZAKIAH BT MOHD RADZI 


I know I owe you guys an apology because I isolated you guys .
fine I admit it . but that doesn't mean you guys aren't my friends okay ?
you guys are still the apple to my eye and the pie to my heart .
I'm deeeeeeeeeeeply sorry guys .
aku sayang korang ♥

hahahaha .

I don't know what to say .
it's not that I envy you or anything .
it's the fact you made me do it .
I didn't want us to be this way .
you decided to separate our relationship .
I considered you as my bf since Form 2 .
but I didn't know that you never felt the same way .
you found another girl to replace me right ?
I don't consider just simply anyone to be my bf .
you cause this upon yourself .
and now you want to be what ? JEALOUS ?
why should you ? you were the one that started this .
my last words are ...
YOU DESERVE I BABE :)

these are the people I officially can't live without



aku sayang korang lah ! bffs forever ! ♥