oh just STFU !

yes , first of all . don't flatter yourself okay ?
I soooooooooooooo did not smiled at you on purpose .
it was a sudden movement that I regreeeeeeeet ! OMG !!
i so hate you don't you know that ?
now don't ever even THINK of APOLOGIZING !
because yes sir you should know I won't forgive you !
you SOAB ! = = daaaaaamn . I think that's it .
adios muchacos ! = =

HOW CAN THIS BE ?

why does my heart keep pounding faster and faster every time I see his face ?
not just his face , even his photos . and my heart is still pounding that fast !
why can' I control my feelings ? I don't want to feel it . I don't like it .
I don't wanna fall in love ! damn , I need someone to talk to .
I am literally going INSANE right now . I can't think straight .
damn oh damn ooh damnnn . now I want to cuss .
haihh , it's so damn hard maaaaaaan ! = =

my biggest regret

they say the hardest words to say is 'I'm sorry'
but to me , NO ! it's not .
it's hard to say I'm sorry because you won't admit your ego .
now I want to send my BIGGEST and LARGEST SORRY to these two .

NUR AIN BT MOHD RODZI 
SITI NUR ZAKIAH BT MOHD RADZI 


I know I owe you guys an apology because I isolated you guys .
fine I admit it . but that doesn't mean you guys aren't my friends okay ?
you guys are still the apple to my eye and the pie to my heart .
I'm deeeeeeeeeeeply sorry guys .
aku sayang korang ♥

hahahaha .

I don't know what to say .
it's not that I envy you or anything .
it's the fact you made me do it .
I didn't want us to be this way .
you decided to separate our relationship .
I considered you as my bf since Form 2 .
but I didn't know that you never felt the same way .
you found another girl to replace me right ?
I don't consider just simply anyone to be my bf .
you cause this upon yourself .
and now you want to be what ? JEALOUS ?
why should you ? you were the one that started this .
my last words are ...
YOU DESERVE I BABE :)

these are the people I officially can't live without



aku sayang korang lah ! bffs forever ! ♥

relationships.

they say the time you really find the right guy is when you know you guys everything in common.
you should know that all that are LIES and total BS !
well, to certain people it is true but to me it isn't.
in my opinion, when you both have the same thing in common,
you tend to get bored easily. wanna know why?
because, you both like ice cream. wohoo ! good for you ==
but, when you both like ice cream, there's nothing special about it.
you won't really feel special because you like what he likes.
BUT ! , if you like ice cream but your partner likes chocolate,
you can exchange presents. like you'll know what he likes and he know what you like.
it's pretty much AWESOME !
you can't exchange ice cream for ice cream.
you see what I'm saying? HAHA !
well, that is my opinion. what do you think?
leave a comment :)

last night

so he texted me at about 8.30 pm
but I didn't heard the message tone.
because usually someone wouldn't text me.
so around 10.15 pm I wanted to charge my battery
an saw his name. I was like "OMG OMG !"
and I was thinking "damn ! I only have 5 cents !"
so I text bana and asked her to top up for me.
so that I can message him back.
well you know I wanted to chat longer.
so then I text him and well blablabla.
nothing to explain. (because it's private) :P
and yeah that's about what happened last night.
but actually, the story doesn't have anything to do with the tittle.
actually, I wanted to tell another different story.
so you can skip the early part.
oh wait, you can't ! cause you already read it !
HAHAHAHAHAHA ! how evil am I?
well, I guess I still have your attention cause you won't stop reading right?
I know you know that I know you want to know what REALLY happened last night right?
HAHA ! I confused myself back there :D

so here's the REAL story.
after he text me around 11.30 I said "okay I'm tired I wanna sleep"
then he said "good night"
and then I went to my bed, switched off the lights and closed my eyes.
even though me eyes were closed, but my mind are like else where.
so then, I went to the toilet and well, do my thing I guess.
you don't have to know :P
so, then I went and opened my laptop and started to online.
I was online until around 1.00 am I think.
then I said to myself "STOP IT ! you need to sleep"
so I went down stairs and went to the kitchen ( I don't know why )
then I got hungry. so I search for something to eat.
but there's nothing to eat. I was like "damn" ==
so, I wanted to cook some hotdogs but we were all out.
then I saw pancake mixture. I was thinking "why not"
I started cooking then my mom asked me.
"what are you cooking there?"
I said "pancake. why?"
she was like "astaghfirullah alazim"
and then I was like "don't judge me mom"
HAHA ! what's wrong with a little pancake at 2 am right?
so I only got 5 pancake and then I got SUPER sleepy.
then I went back upstairs and hit the hay.
guess what? my stomach was grumbling.
then I wen't to the toilet and did number 2 !
LOL ! cause that stupid pancake gave me a stomach ache.

and that my friends is based on a true story.
I hope you enjoy :)

And see the next time he’s testin’ yo love
You put your finger in his face and you tell him
MY LOVE HAS A LIMIT !

yeah I know you're the perfect prince charming. but who am I but an ugly duckling wishing upon a magical well that one day I'll be a beautiful swan and marry that prince. but Fify girl, you gotta remember this is REAL LIFE. NO perfect guy will ever love people like you. I'm just an ugly duckling.

LOL. just thought I'd post this.

it's nothing really. 

these were the words I posted not a moment too soon after we broke up.

yeah and I meant everything I said.

thank goodness I got a female intuition you know.

cause if I didn't text him that night,

I would have probably love the effin man for months

without realizing that he would have wanted us to end.

I guess fate has it's own way of telling my life's story.

now I really wish I haven't met you ever. 

well, I guess it's time for me to close this entry.

xoxo :)

story of my past.

4 years ago you told me you love me.
but why did you took it all back?
you say you missed me but did you mean it?
you told me you'll never break my heart.
but what did you do to me 4 years ago?
you tell me you love me but took it back.
you broke my heart into millions of pieces.
well, when my heart was still one you decided to shatter it.
when my heart was one, I only had one wish.
that was to marry you.
but now that it's shattered into million parts,
just like the stars in the sky.
you left me with millions of wishes.
so instead of being extremely depressed and mad,
I should really thank you.
because, if it wasn't for you,
I would have never knew true love.
I would have never even MET love.
I would have never learn that life is what it is.
in this only life, I should learn to develop further.
and find myself a decent man.
a true gentle man. with an English accent :)
and get married !
and I wanna have babies.
and to watch them grow and watch them get married.
then, we both live together till our last breath.
in a small cottage with a vine yard.
we can go for horse riding in the afternoon.
sipping lemonade killing time.
and those are my wishes.
all concludes the million stars.
and my million wishes.
but I will leave one star.
and before the day I'd die,
I'd wish upon the star to meet you for one last time.
and thank you for your eternal love.
and my love will and always be eternal upon you.

I know we're cool :)

It's hard to remember how it felt before
Now I found the love of my life...
Passes things get more comfortable
Everything is going right

And after all the obstacles
It's good to see you now with someone else
And it's such a miracle that you and me are still good friends
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool

We used to think it was impossible
Now you call me by my new last name
Memories seem like so long ago
Time always kills the pain

Remember Harbor Boulevard
The dreaming days where the mess was made
Look how all the kids have grown
We have changed but we're still the same
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool 

And I'll be happy for you
If you can be happy for me
Circles and triangles, and now we're hangin' out with your new girlfriend
So far from where we've been
I know we're cool 

me and you? I don't think so.

I thought it was fate.
you said it was destiny.
I thought it was admiring.
you said it was love.
I thought it was the moon.
you said it was the stars.
I thought it was you.
you said it was me.
I thought you left me.
you said "I'll never leave you"
I ran away.
you chased after me and gave me a hug.
I thought it was forever.

so did you.

but I never knew forever was so short.
how come forever ended 4 years ago?
where did our forever go?
where are your promises?
where are we now?
I guess you've moved on.
and now, so shall I.

Thomas J. Sennett: What do you think it's like?

Vada Sultenfuss: What?

Thomas J. Sennett: Heaven.

Vada Sultenfuss: I think... everybody gets their own white horse and all they do is ride them and eat marshmallows all day. And everybody's best friends with everybody else. When you play sports, there's no teams, so nobody gets picked last.

Thomas J. Sennett: But what if you're afraid to ride horses?

Vada Sultenfuss: Doesn't matter 'cause they're not regular horses. They've got wings. And it's no big deal if you fall 'cause you'll just land in a cloud.

conversation between my family

so we were like in the car going somewhere.
I forgot already. HAHA. we're all were like so mute.
so dad gave us a riddle. *sorry it's in malay*

dad : apa benda kita potong makin tinggi?
adik : air
qayyum : pokok
me : tatau
fana : *hearing her earphone
dad : benda tuu ada kat kita
adik : TANGAN !
everyone : laugh at adik.
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translation :

dad : what thing when we cut it grows higher?
adik : water
qayyum : tree
me : idk
fana : *hearing her earphone
dad : the thing we have on us
adik : HAND !
everyone except fana : laugh at adik.
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here's the kink :
how can you cut off your hands and make it grow higher?
still remains a mystery why he answered so. LOL :)
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so the real answer is *if you're wondering*

our pants. because you cut it from the bottom part to the higher part right?
then we all went "oh yeah" except adik.
then adik questioned us again :

adik : how come pants? then shirt also can ! we cut off sleeve
someone : cannot lah ! what if you put up your hands? then how?
                 your feet cannot put up right?

then he went all giggly and gedik in a very annoying way.
so that's the story. this happened a long time ago. :)

ENJOY :3        

conversation between me and bana

fana : blablablabla
me : ignoring
fana : maybe I'm going to period
me : whaa?
fana : nothing
me : fana na period?
fana : yup
me : why?
fana : cause I'm acting all weird
me : so you're about to period because you're acting weird?
fana : maybe
me : no
fana : how you know?
me : you were born weird.

a day in a girl's life

a little bit of make ups
a little bit of chocolate
a little bit of Baskin Robbins
a little bit of Haagen Dazs
a little bit of Famous Amos
a little bit of pleasure
a little bit of bike riding in the park
a little bit of stroll along the shore
a little bit of jog in the afternoon
a little bit of hand holding
a little bit of hugging
a little bit of dinner
a little bit of supper
a little bit of me
a little bit of YOUU.

and that is what make my day complete ♥

I ♥ Jared Leto

I just LOVE the way he screams !
aww you made my heart melt just like a chocolate that has been left over the heat ♥


I ♥ JARED AND SHANON LETO !

sorry to say

but I ain't working no more !
YEAH ! finally, I'm declaring myself "TOO LAZY" to work.
HAHA, it pays to be lazy :)

he totally text me ! can't believe I'm saying this but I'm finally HAPPY :)

it's not I wasn't happy before but NOW I'm HAPPIER than ever !

when his name came up on my phone it was like the world shinee !

but it's too soon for me to say I'm in LOVE or anything.

it's just the fact I'm happy once more.. wehee <3

story of my life

when I was 6 years old,

my teachers asked me what I wanted to be when I grow up. 

I told her "I want to be a DOCTOR" 

when I grew older, at age 8,

my parents asked me what I wanted to be when I grow up.

I told them " I wan to be a MILLIONAIRE"

at age 12, 

my friends asked me what I wanted to be when I grow up.

I said " I want to be an ASTRONAUT"

but at the age of 15, I started to wonder.

what do I really wanted to be when I grow up?

as the years pass by, I'm already 18.

now I am all grown up. 

but I realize, that I keep changing my mind. 

now I've really got to keep my head straight.

there's no turning back now.

it's too late to go back when I was 6 and tell myself what I know now.

I'd better start choosing, and I should be choosing wisely.

sometimes we all wish for a happily ever after.

sometimes we all wish for a happily ever after.

but I guess happily ever after are just plain bullshit.

cause this is real life, not some Disney's princess movie.