Marriage... Any opinions?

This is the one place I can express my inner thoughts. I post in English not to impress but to let everyone understand my problems. I wish you readers out there are willing to give me your opinion sometimes. I have a problem relating to boys. Whenever I start to feel, they always leave me. I don't believe in fate or love at first sight. I no longer believe in guys but I am not becoming a lesbian. My mother always say I must find someone that I can marry, but I don't think I want to get married. So what's your opinion? Should I find someone? Or someone to get married to? Or just stay just the way I am now? I'm 20 this year by the way.

Guitar

So I'm trying to learn how to play the guitar. Wish me luck :D

Randomly speaking.

Okay so now I guess what he really wants from me. I realize now I was just a toy. But no big deal. Hehe, I can laugh it off. I'm now over it. I am now a new person. I met this cool guy. He's changing me into something I've always wanted to be. I am really grateful :) Thank you for showing up in my life.